38 has started like a b*&@h!!!!

It's been almost three months since my birthday.  I was laid off.  I lost my insurance.  I was abruptly taken off of 13 medications.  A year long custody battle just ended.   All on my birthday.......Happy 38th!

I decided to lay low for a while.  I've avoided some very dear friends, stopped going to the gym, and have been really, really down in the dumps.  I've gained 20 pounds, I feel like crap and.......I'm tired of it.  Although there has been some good things; I'm not spending any time on FB and I don't dread Monday anymore.  I miss me.  I NEED to get back to the gym.  I NEED to get back to my doctor.  I NEED to find a way to deal with this anxiety and stress NOW!  I'm hoping that starting back up writing on this blog will give me an outlet and some motivation to start the journey on where I NEED and WANT to me, for me and my family.

While it's been an extremely hard few months, it been a very difficult couple of years.  For almost three years, I have been the only breadwinner for my family (my 5 children, my partner, and myself).  The one positive of this heartbreaking situation is that I have realized how much I cherish and love my partner.  It hasn't been easy to watch him go through a severe injury and several surgeries.  But somehow through the recovery, my stressful custody battle, my own health battles and the scary scenario of losing my job, our relationship has flourished.

It's late and I AM getting up early and GOING TO THE GYM.  I have to!


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