Being Thankful.....

Most people start their list of things to be thankful for on November 1st and then stop on Thanksgiving.  I'm going to be a little different.  You should already know that...LOL!!!  I'm going to start my list of things to be thankful for today and end on December 31st.  This year has been better than some and worse than some, but at least the good has out weighted the bad.

Before I go into that I'm going to vent about my Thanksgiving.

First of all, my older babies were with their Dad the whole week.  I missed them so much.  I don't know how people can live without their children.  Our home is small so it's hard to have our whole blended family in one place.  I hate feeling like when my babies big sister visits I have to send my children to their Dad's house.  I haven't had all of my babies for Thanksgiving in three years.  I have to choose a holiday and I'd rather miss them on Thanksgiving than Christmas, but why do I have to make that sacrifice.

Second, my Black Friday shopping was sabotaged by an unexpected bill.  Well I should say unexpected by me.  It would have been prevented had my "significant other" been pro-active.  I hate being the financially responsible one.  I had plans to get his daughter, my older children, and our babies Christmas presents with that money.  This man makes $10 an hour more than I do, yet I carry the household financially.  Yes he is supportive in other ways.  I am thankful for that, but sometimes I want to be able to do the things I plan and save for.  I'm not asking that much. 

Third, we all got sick.  I finally have four days off in a row and what happens.....everyone gets the damn flu.  I will admit the Man really stepped up with this.  He had way more patience than I did.  We spent $350 on Thanksgiving food that we did not eat and ended up throwing away because we were all sick.  Last year, we vowed to spend less than the $400 we spent.  I will NEVER NEVER NEVER let him plan Thanksgiving again.  For someone who hates to throw away food, he is making a yearly habit of it on Thanksgiving.

Lastly, we decided that next year we will do our own family Thanksgiving.  Between the $300 of food we throw away and the family drama (luckily I missed out on being home with sick kids), it's time we do our own family holidays. If we must have family holidays, it will be a select few.  There are enough adversities in this world, family does not need to be one of them.

Sorry it's been so long since I've blogged....I promise to be better about my ranting!!!

This is my oath to you

Yo, my best friend, best friend til the very end
Cause best friends, best friends don't have to pretend
You need a hand, and i'm right here right beside you
You in the dark, i'll be the bright light to guide you
'Member the times, times, times sneaking of the house
All of the times, times, times that you had the doubts
And don't forget all the trouble we got into
We got something you can't undo, do

Laughing so damn hard
Crashed your dad's new car
All the stars we share
I Promise, I swear

Wherever you go, just always remember
You got a home for now and forever
And if you get low, just call me whenever
This is my oath to you
Wherever you go, just always remember
You never alone, we born to the better
And we'll never change, no matter the weather
This is my oath to you

I know I drive you crazy, mm, sometimes
I know I called you lazy, and that's most times
But you complete me, and that's no lie
You are my tuxedo, and i'm your roatar
We in the car, sing, sing, singing our song
Rocking the building, tear it down, like we king kong
And in my eyes, you can't do, do no wrong
You got the best friends sing, sing, sing along

Laughing so damn hard
Crashed your dad's new car
All the stars we share
I Promise, I swear

Wherever you go, just always remember
You got a home for now and forever
And if you get low, just call me whenever
This is my oath to you
Wherever you go, just always remember
You never alone, we born to the better
And we'll never change, no matter the weather
This is my oath to you

I'll never let you go
Woah, this is my oath to you
Just thought that you should know
Woah, this is my oath to you

Yeah...

Wherever you go, just always remember
You got a home for now and forever
And if you get low, just call me whenever
This is my oath to you
Wherever you go, just always remember
You never alone, we born to the better
And we'll never change, no matter the weather
This is my oath to you

You should know, you should know, you should know
Woah, this is my oath to you
You never alone, we born to the better
Woah, this is my oath to you

Oath by Cher Lloyd

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My Fat Ass Sprained My Ankle.....not suitable for young eyes!!!

I have been doing so good at walking during lunch. I almost always walk my
three miles every work day. I decided to step it up and start incorporating
jogging. One of my long term goals is to do a 5k and then a 10k. So I
downloaded this great app on my iPhone called Couch to 5k. It alternates
walking and jogging. I have lost a little weight since beginning my
"religious" lunch time walking. But I have come to the conclusion
that I have not lost enough to start jogging. I ended up stepping wrong and
twisting my ankle. To be more exact, I now have a lower ankle sprain. It hurts
like hell in the morning and at night. As long as I'm walking around, it's a
little irritating but it's not too painful. I have concluded (much to the
dismay of my wonderful partner) that my fat ass caused my ankle issue. This is
how the conversation went:

Him: What's wrong with your ankle?
Me: My fat ass is too big to be jogging around. Because I tried to jog my
fat ass around, the excess weight in my fat ass caused me to hurt my ankle.
Him: Exactly how did you ankle get hurt?
Me: I landed wrong while I was trying to jog.
Him: So you mis-stepped and hurt your ankle?
Me: No, my fat ass caused me to mis-step hurting my ankle!
Him: (shaking head)

You see he has preached and preached and preached that if you only jog your
body will transform naturally and become perfectly proportioned. So being the
blind sheep I was lead slightly astray. I mean who doesn't want natural
transformation and perfect proportions.

Just another exciting day in my life......

BTW, I'm still walking my 3 miles a day with a bum ankle. But it's taking me
a little bit longer right now. I probably should let it heal first, but
nahhhhh.....why would I do that??? I got goals to meet!!!!

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App of the Week ~ Bloglovin

This week Bloglovin in our app of the week.  

The think I love about this app is that it collects all your favorite blogs in one place.  It's kind of like a RSS reader.  If you are super busy like me, you usually don't have the time to go to every blog and catch up.   As far as I know the blog has to register with Bloglovin for you to follow it.  It is a fairly new app so it isn't perfect.  There are definitely areas that could be better. But it serves it's purpose well for me.  I don't think you are able to follow Tumblr blogs yet.  WordPress and Blogger blogger are able to use to register with Bloglovin.

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My Exciting Friday Night

Friday is the best day of the work week. Especially after 5 when we are finally free for the weekend. It seems like time passes so slowly during the week. But as soon as Friday night come, time speeds by faster than I can believe. Before I know it, it's Sunday. Sunday is my absolute favorite day of the week. Most Friday nights, we goof around and stay up late to celebrate another week of school and work has come to a close. This Friday Night we have some work to do. Our landlord has decided to finally clean the outside of the building. We have lived at the community since November of last year. What we didn't realize when we moved in was the huge pidgeon problem the building has. Our deck has been covered in pidgeon shit since March. I have asked and asked and asked to have it cleaned. Our landlord is finally doing it. The only two items we have on our deck is our bbq and smoker. So tonight we will be cleaning off and sanitizing them both to bring them inside. I can not wait to have a clean deck.

The best thing about all this is I have not told the kids. While I will be cleaning off the deck items, they will be cleaning the apartment. Hey, why should I have to do it all right???!!!

See my twitter for amusing updates throughout the evening: twitter.com/jenavive!!!

I wore a skirt two days in a row.....the end of the world must be coming???!!! J/K!!!

I love skirts! I love them with tights and boots. Luckily winter is coming and hopefully this winter I can have my fill of skirts, boots, and tights. I haven't worn a skirt in forever. I grew up wearing my fair share of skirts. Especially when we were going to church three times a week. Now that I'm exercising more and trimming down a little, skirts are going to be my thing this winter.

App of the Week: I am literally obsessed with Voxer!!!

I'm going to add a App of the Week entry every week on this blog.

This week the app of the week is Voxer.

Voxer is a walkie-talkie app that is availabe on Apple and Android products.
I'm not sure if it is available on Blackberrys or Window Phones yet.
I cannot get enough of it. I have been voxering for days now. I love it because you can sent little messages and hear your friend's voice.

My first voxer session when a little like this:
Me: OMG Becky
Stacy: Look at her butt
Me: It is so big
Stacy: It's so round
Me: She looks like one of those rap guys girl friends
Stacy: I like big butts and I can not lie
Me: You other brothers can't deny
Stacy: My anaconda don't want none unless you got buns hun
Me: You can do side bends and sit ups but please don't lose that butt
Stacy: So Ladies
Me: If you wanna roll in my Mercedes
Me: Shake that healthy butt
Stacy: Baby Got Back
Me: LA Face with an Oakland Booty
Stacy: Shit I can't remember the rest of the words.

Now re-read it but use a southern accent to Stacy's words. Yea, cracked up the whole time because it was so damn funny.

I even voxered through the whole Seahawks game. This time it was hilarious for Stacy because I was Vodkified. (Yes Vodkafied is a word and its mine.)

One of many great features is that it saves the messages so you can go back and hear them again. You can vox just one person or a group. Love Love Love this app!!!

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What Type Of Love Are You Looking For???

My friend shared this picture on her Facebook page.

Isn't everyone looking for this type of love? Sure we all want stability and security, but who doesn't want passion. If we didn't want this type of love Nicholas Sparks would not be a millionaire right now. We are all imperfect, but we all want to be loved unconditionally. We have a need to be wanted. We want to be with someone who can't live without us. I realize this could be co-dependency, but in reality isn't that want a relationship is?

When you love someone, every decision you make includes them. Sometimes you subconsiuosly make a decision factoring in their preferences. For instance, when I go to KFC I will automatically get regular chicken because Israel does not like Extra Crispy. I won't even give it a thought.

This might be rambling and going in a completely different direction, but this is my blog. So I can ramble all I want! ;-)

The bottomo line is I want this type of love. I'd say 99.999999999 percent of people do to. I also want a love that includes dancing in the kitchen to slow jams, rubbing my back when I'm sick, remembering I like the cocktail pep instead of the smoked pepperonis, making up silly songs to make me smile because I've had a terrible day. Luckily for me I mostly have this.

Move this mountain

What do you want from me
I stand before you no attempt to leave
I'm too tired to disagree
I stand before you no chance I'll believe this warning
Oh do you know
I would have done anything for you
Take this chance I won't repeat this
I can do anything that's put beside of you
And I can move any mountains that you make
I'll lift you up and my back will never break
And I can move this mountain
Come and take the rest of me
I never thought I wouldn't want you near
This is all I'll ever be
I understand you
Look around to see this dawning
Oh, does it show
I wanted to catch you falling
Oh, do you know
I would have done anything for you
Take this chance I won't repeat this
I can do anything that's put beside of you
And I can move any mountains that you make
I'll lift you up and my back will never break
And I can move this mountain


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Inner Smile by Texas

One Two Three Four

Yeah Yeah Yeah
Yeah Yeah Yeah
Yeah Yeah Yeah
Yeah Yeah Yeah

You gave me something like loving
And took me in so soon
You took my feelings from nothing
Came back at noon
Just maybe I'm ready
To show myself to you

So if I loose my patience
You must try to understand (try to understand)
And if I loose my patience
Oh yeah.

Coz you make me feel...
Coz you make me feel wild
You touch my inner smile
You got me in the mood
So come on make your move

And Free me

You make my wishes as much as
Your kisses make me blue
If I'm a river below you escape away to
But maybe I'm ready
I'm falling into you

So if I loose my patience
You must try to understand (try to understand)
And if I loose my patience
Oh yeah.

Coz you make me feel...
Coz you make me feel wild
You touch my inner smile
You got me in the mood
So come on make your move

And free me
Free me
Free me

Woah woah woah
Woah woah woah
Yeah Yeah

Coz you make me feel...
Coz you make me feel wild
You touch my inner smile
You got me in the mood
So come on make your move

And touch my inner smile
And get my inner smile

Smile smile
Yeah

Sometimes I need to be alone
Sometimes I'm needing you to phone
Sometimes you make me feel so high
There's times I ask myself why



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I'll see it through by Texas (a scottish band)

When you touch me
I feel there's nothing you can do to turn me away
And I know that
In the past you've had bad luck so I should help you stay

You're all I ever wanted
You're all I ever needed, it's you
You're all I've ever wanted
And loving you's the right thing to do
And I'll see it through

When I close my eyes
And think of you it takes me places that I've never seen
And the rain, it blows
You're brushing up against my skin to wash me clean

You're all I ever wanted
You're all I ever needed - it's you
You're all I've ever wanted
And loving you's the right thing to do
And I'll see it through

I'll show you the love in my head
I'll show you the love that we had
I'll show you the love in my head
I'll show you the love that we had

You're all I ever wanted
You're all I've ever needed, it's you
You're all I've ever wanted
And loving you's the right thing to do

You're all I ever wanted
You're all I've ever needed, it's you
You're all I've ever wanted
And loving you's the right thing to do
And I'll see it through


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LA Gear Was The $#it When I Was A Kid ~ Totally Had These!!!!

Love this Commerical

Dude that is so totally gross!!!

What Is Considered Romantic?

Sunday my oldest Lilia and I had a conversation about what was considered romantic. She is only 12. My "hunny bunny" was running errands, which included a trip to Walmart. This man is incapable of staying within his spending limit at Walmart. Usually his overages are fishing items. So there isn't any point in me repremanding him. He called to inform me that he had went over his limit again. I expected as much! He reason was "I got you something". I HATE surprises. Absolutely hate them. I must be in control of EVERYTHING!

When he gets home, we empty all the bags and he hands me my "surprise".

Well, what do you think?

Lilia had an opinion. If you knew her, you would know she has an opinion about everything. She is overly opinionated for being only 12.

This is how our conversation went:

Lilia: Mom what are those knives for?
Me: H.B. got them as a surprise
Lilia: he's not very romantic is he?
Lilia: flowers and chocolate are cheaper. It makes girls love you for.....well a long time. It's worked for centuries.
Me: knives last longer than flowers
Lilia: Mom there knives who thinks steel and plastic are romantic.

I shared this with H.B. and his response was "Harsh". She wasn't meaning to be harsh. But it did remind me of my ideals of being "romantic" at her age.

I'd rather have knives from him than all the flowers and chocolate in the world from someone else.

I'm sure her views of what is romantic will change when she gets older. I can't wait to remind her of this conversation when she gets older.

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Little Talks ~ I ♥ this song

Hey! Hey! Hey!
I don't like walking around this old and empty house
So hold my hand; I'll walk with you, my dear
The stairs creak as I sleep; it's keeping me awake
It's the house telling you to close your eyes
Some days I can't even trust myself
It's killing me to see you this way
'Cause though the truth may vary, this ship will carry
Our bodies safe to shore
Hey! Hey! Hey!
There's an old voice in my head that's holding me back
Well tell her that I miss our little talks
Soon it will all be over and buried without past
We used to play outside when we were young, and full of life and full of love
Some days, I feel like I'm wrong when I am right
Your mind is playing tricks on you, my dear
'Cause though the truth may vary, this ship will carry
Our bodies safe to shore.
Hey!
Don't listen to a word I say
Hey!
The screams all sound the same
Hey!
Though the truth may vary, this ship will carry
Our bodies safe to shore
You're gone, gone gone away; I watched you disappear
All that's left is a ghost of you
Now we're torn, torn, torn apart; there's nothing we can do
Just let me go; we'll meet again soon
Now wait, wait, wait for me; please hang around
I'll see you when I fall asleep
Hey!
Don't listen to a word I say
Hey!
The screams all sound the same
Hey!
Though the truth may vary, this ship will carry
Our bodies safe to shore
Don't listen to a word I say
Hey!
The screams all sound the same
Hey!
Though the truth may vary, this ship will carry
Our bodies safe to shore
Though the truth may vary, this ship will carry
Our bodies safe to shore
Though the truth may vary, this ship will carry
Our bodies safe to shore

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A trip back in time

Today I took my kids to my old home town Issaquah. Growing up a military brat, we moved every three to four years if we were lucky. My grandparents lived in Issaquah. No matter where we were stationed, our grandparents house was always stable. When my dad would have to go, we went home to Issaquah. We spent a year there when he went to Iceland. We spent a year there when my Dad was in Desert Storm. I had my first kiss in the front yard, spent the whole summer I turn 12, and got my drivers license at this house.

It was reassuring and comforting to be able to come home anytime and see everything the same. In a life of constant change, this was the place of stability.

One of the things I loved the most about Issaquah as a kid was the salmon hatchery. I remember walking by the big bays of water and seeing the large trays of salmon eggs. I remember seeing the three to five inch baby fish jumping.




Everything seemed so big. And I remember at the beginning of the school year seeing the big salmon come back to swim up the ladder.




Back in those days, the hatchery was quite small. But Issaquah was also much smaller than it is now. They have built on to the hatchery since I was a little girl. There are educational areas for every age group.




Watching my kids walk through the hatchery was amazing. There will be only a few places I will be able to share with them from my childhood. Maybe that makes it a bit more special for me.




We had a great picnic lunch in the same area I did as a kid. It wasn't anything special.




But a blanket, some peanut butter and jelly sandwiches, and cheese puffs and it was as Elizabeth said "The Best Picnic Ever"




Hopefully our next Issaquah adventure will include a visit to the 12th Ave Cafe and a plate of Mickey Mouse Chocolate Chip Pancakes for each kid!

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Why I Love Britney Spears

I didn't like Britney Spears when she first came out.  All I could see was another blonde "little" girl singing about normal teenage shit.  You must remember that there was also Christina Aguliera and Jessica Simpson on the map.  My little sister adored her.  She said "I can relate to her in so many ways."  I love my sister, but I rolled my eyes anytime I she said that. 

Fast forward a couple years, and I completely adore Britney Spears.  Maybe it's ironic, but I feel like I can now relate to her in way I would never have before.  Mental breakdowns, marriage, divorce, babies, a full time job are all things an average woman has been through.  Although we might not be on the same scale,  I can relate to all of those things. 

Aside from the image of Britney, I prefer her music now to her "Baby Hit Me One More Time" era.  She might not sing anything earth shattering or profound, but she is relatable for most women.

I'm looking forward to seeing her on the X-Factor. 

Keep Kicking Ass Britney!!!

You're Cool...F U...I'm Out!!!!!!

Ever felt like you were having one of these days???  I do, at least once a week!  Every once in a while I want to just scream.  Life is not easy! Between being a mother, lover, daughter, granddaughter, sister, friend, employee, and employer, there are days I'm just beat physically and emotionally.  Fortunately for me, I am reminded instantly why I do what I do! 

Darkside By Kelly Clarkson

Ohhh

There's a place
That I know
It's not pretty there and few have ever gone
If it show it to you now
Will it make you run away
Or will you stay even if it hurts
Even if I try to push you out will you return
And remind me who I really am
Please remind me who I really am

Everybodys got a dark side
Do you love me
Can you love mine
Nobodys a picture perfect
But were worth it
You know that were worth it

Will you love me
Even with my dark side
Like a diamond from black pearls
It's hard to know I can become if you give up
So don't give up on me
Please remind me who I really am

Everybodys got a dark side
Do you love me
Can you love mine
Nobodys a picture perfect
But were worth it
You know that were worth it

Will you love me
Even with my dark side

Don't run away, don't run away
Just tell me that you will stay
Promise that you will stay
Yeah yeah
Don't run away, don't run away
Just promise me you will stay, promise me you will stay

Will you love me?
Ohhhhh

Everybodys got a dark side
Do you love me
Can you love mine
Nobodys a picture perfect
But were worth it
You know that were worth it

Will you love me
Even with my dark side

Don't run away, don't run away

Don't run away, promise you'll stay

Adjusting Expectations

Growing up I had an excellent example of a marriage and family.  My Dad was a strong man.  He provided for his family, financially and emotionally.  My Mom was an amazing woman.  She took care of her home, her children, and her man.  They weren't perfect and they didn't expect perfection from us.

My Dad took care of all the manly things; i.e. garbage, yard, cars, pests, putting together bunk beds, etc.  My Mom took care of the inside things; i.e. laundry, cleaning, sewing, cooking, schooling, etc.  My Dad was in the military, so there were times my Mom had to do take care of everything.  I never remember her talking badly or being bitter about it.  We were always told that Dad was taking care of his family, that was his priority.  We knew that he loved us.

Even though he would be gone for weeks, months, or even a year at a time; we were always in his heart and thoughts.  When my Dad was home, he was home.  He wasn't watching the game somewhere, out with his buddies, or spending the day away from his family.  I'm not sure if this was because he was gone so much or because he didn't really want to be anywhere else but with his family.   I did acquire my love of football from him.  Somehow through the chaos of five children, he still had the game on and was watching it any chance he got.

My parents were always united.  They had their disagreements, but at the end of the day they both had the same goal and purpose.  When they did fight, my Mom was usually the vocal one.  She would be upset and my Dad would always let her get everything "off her chest".  My Dad would just hug her after she was done and everything was fine.  My parent's showed us that a good relationship did not mean there were no fights, disagreements, or trials.

They showed us that a relationship is made of two imperfect, flawed people.  They instilled in us that family is first.  We don't have drama in our family because it will not be tolerated on any level.  They would cut off any extended family member or friend at the slight hint of drama.

Being blessed with this great example of a relationship and the different roles each person played, I have developed very deep rooted expectations of what a "good" relationship should be.  I come from a long line of hard headed first born woman.  My Dad knew how to handle my Mom.  My Grandfather knew how to handle my Grandmother.  On my Dad's side of the family, the women swung the cast iron skillet if the men didn't listen.   So I get my stubbornness equally from both sides.

In the past, I did not focus on the flaws of my expectations.  No one has made it worth the time in self reflection.  That is not the case anymore.  Anthony Robbins has a saying "If you do what you've always done, you'll get what you've always gotten".  I don't want the same type of relationship I have had before.  I want a relationship like my parents.  I realize that takes a lot of work and realignment of my expecations.  I am willing to put the work into that.  My only problem is I don't know where to start or what to do. 

I'd like to believe it was the generation they were raised in or the place of their marriage, that has made my parents who they are.  But it isn't either.  Who they are is what has made their marriage work.  Awareness is the first step to solving any problem.  So I guess I'm headed down the right path.

My Lil Angelina is 3 today

My baby girl Angelina Grace is 3 today. I remember the day I found out I was pregnant! I was excited and nervous. Angelina is baby number 4. She was born with a guarded yet adventurous spirit. If you can get past her "mean mug", you will find an amazing smile, infectious laugh, and a love of music. She is the true definition of a daddy's girl. She will spend hours watching fishing, football, and WWE just to be next to her daddy. She will sit next to her daddy and "play" with him to get his fishing gear ready. She sometime sits next to him for hours holding bobber, weights, and line. Her attention span amazes me!

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Everybody Got Their Something

LOVE THIS SONG!!!!

My face to the sky
Dreaming about just how high
I could go and I'll know
When I finally get there

Taking of my glasses
Sun pokes through my lashes
And somehow I know
There's a time for every star to shine

Everybody got their something
Everybody got their something
Make you smile like an itty bitty child

People keeping score
Say better hurry up and get yours
Cause somebody else get your spot
Before you even dropped

Seek and you shall find
Everything in my own sweet time
I'll take my chances
With what I believe is only mine

Busy holding on
So the roof don't fly
Keep you from moving on
So get it right
Turn the tide over
Like a love song
Like a butterfly
Believe if you hand it over
You'll come out all right

Everybody got their something
Everybody got their something
Make you smile like an itty bitty child

Illuminate the silly things
Shed some light on all that's wrong
Everybody need it sometime
Sometimes the only thing you got
Is what makes you feel like
You're something else altogether
You have everything don't need
Another reason to be something
I've been on a ride
And caught up in the landslide
But I'm gonna spread my wings and fly...

Everybody got their something
Everybody got their something
Make you smile like an itty bitty child

There's a time for every star
There's a time for every star...

Everybody Got Their Something




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Officially Entered The Last Year Of My Early 30's AKA My New Driver's License Picture Is Appauling!

Yesterday was my birthday.  And beside having a sick baby boy, it was actually a pretty decent day.  I got a Keurig, which I have been wanting FOREVER!!!  Yea Me! 

One extra thing about this birthday:  My license expired.

First, my picture.  I was so looking forward to getting a new picture.  So I went to the DMV first thing this morning.  I got up early.  Put on my makeup, did my hair, the whole shabang.  Figuring the whole time that there is no way in Heaven or Hell that this picture could be as bad or worse than the last one.  (Yes I know this is a run on sentence...DEAL WITH IT!)  Well, what can I say?  I WAS COMPLETELY TOTALLY 100% DEAD WRONG.  What the hell is wrong with the photographers at the DMV?  Are they that miserable that they have to give everyone a really crappy picture?  I only got one re-take and it wasn't any better than the first attempt.  Apparently I have 14 chins that only come out at the DMV.  I explained my picture catastrophe to my significant other.  He is so supportive.  His response was "Ahhh.  They are just love handles."  My response "ON MY FACE???!!!"  At that point I had to hang up because he was laughing so hard he couldn't keep talking.

Second, my weight.  Being a responsible woman in my "early" 30's I decided to be a little more honest about my weight.  I have had it at 125lbs since I got my first license at 19.  I told them I weigh 150 lbs.  So that will account for the added weight of my 14 CHINS!!!!

Third and the thing I'm most proud of, my license actually has my correct, current address on it.  It's been almost 5 years since that has happened.  Wait.....maybe I shouldn't be proud of that!!!  Now I can be found......DAMN IT.  Just kidding!!  LOL!

I have a feeling with this beginning to my new year, it's going to be a very interesting year in my life.  I'm looking forward to it! :-)

I *totally* get it now

Courtesy of my bestie Stacy

I always thought it was horrifically wrong when people said "fuck the police" ... I *totally* get if now...

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Summer is finally here!!!

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Location:N 130th St,Seattle,United States

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"All Things Fall Apart" 50 Cent Style

Sunday I decided to watch the movie "All Things Fall Apart".  My interest in the movie began when I saw a picture of 50 Cent after losing 50 or more pounds.  The storyline also caught my attention because I love football.  Anyone who knows me well knows I LOVE 50 CENT.  While I was scrolling through Netflix, I came across the movie.  My first impressions of the movie were not enough football, too much talking, and 50 Cent should never be allowed to wear dreads AGAIN....NOT EVER!!!  It seriously detracted from the drool factor.  See what I mean??

Anyway, back to the movie....he ends up collapsing in the locker room after a game.  They take him to the hospital and he is diagnosed with cancer.  Like every good movie, they don't really let you know what to expect.  I don't like surprises, even in movies.  This is the main reason I don't like scary movies. They flash from drooly drooly buff to this....







I felt complete despair instantly.  I started crying like a baby.  The sudden image on my screen was unbelievable.  The transformation from buff athlete to cancer fighter was startling.  The movie goes on showing the family dealing with this burden.  I cannot imagine having to witness a loved one go through this.  It almost makes you question life.  I have know people that have fought cancer and people who have supported cancer fighter.  I have not know the loss caused my cancer.  This story is fiction or loosely based on reality.  But to someone this is their reality.   I could not keep watching the movie.  I had to turn it off.  I am thankful that I haven't had to experience this personally.  I pray I never will. 

My computer hates me!!!

So....my computer seriously hates me!!

I've been having an issue with getting redirected when I click on links from Google search. Tonight I decided to try to fix it. Instead
I made it a million times worse!!! somehow I deleted some file with Norton that I needed to start up windows.

This is a issue for two reasons. The first one is it's flustering and inconvenient.....DUH!!! The second reason is I am trying to find a picture of 50 cent to write about his movie I watched last night. This is seriously wrong on so many levels!!!

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Location:Greenwood Ave N,Seattle,United States

Gotta love toddlers

Angelina: Mommy I wanna run errands
Me: Tomorrow Angelina Mommy is tired
Angelina: No your not!!!


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Location:Dayton Ave N,Shoreline,United States

Missing My Babies

My three oldest are in Alaska visiting their grandparents. I miss them so much. I don't know how any mother could live without their children. I miss their hugs. I miss their smiles. I miss their laundry. I miss their messes. I miss their laughs. I miss hearing them say "Mom". They will be home in about 3 weeks. I have enjoyed the quality time with the babies. But I feel not quite whole without all five of them at home. A piece of my heart is missing when they are not with me. I don't know how I will survive when they leave for good. I guess I have a couple years left to worry about that.

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Don't Cha

Omg use to totally love this song!!!

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It's provocative....

It gets the people going

Overcome by Alexandra Burke

This song gives me goose bumps! LOVE IT!!!

If you walk with your head down
You can count every step you take
I know every place I've been now
I can count every mistake
I've been hurt so many times before
Almost forgotten how to dream
All that I was running from
Is all I need to save me

I could'nt let you in my heart
My defenses all fall apart
Just when I thought I'd given up
I have overcome
And now I can't let you go, oh no
You showed me something that I've never known
And finally I've found the one
I have overcome

You can never see it coming there's always that one you can't count out
Who keeps on believing nothings gonna stop me now I've been hurt so many times before
Almost forgotten how to dream
All that I was running from is all I need to save me

I could'nt let you in my heart
My defenses all fall apart
Just when I thought I'd given up
I have overcome
And now I can't let you go, oh no
You showed me something that I've never known
And finally I've found the one
I have overcome

I'm not running anymore
Coz now there's nothing left to hold me down
Some things are worth fighting for
I see it all
It's waiting for me now

I could'nt let you in my heart
My defenses all fall apart
Just when I thought I'd given up
I have overcome
And now I can't let you go, oh no
You showed me something that I've never known
And finally I've found the one
I have overcome

I could'nt let you in my heart
My defenses all fall apart
Just when I thought I'd given up
I have overcome
And now I can't let you go, oh no
You showed me something that I've never known
And finally I've found the one
I have overcome
I have overcome

The Start of My Night :-(

I'm really hoping this isnt a bad sign!!! Are you kidding me? One of 16!!! It's only been a week or two since the last time I turned it on!!! Ugh!!! :-( :-( :-( :-(

Location:Seattle,United States

The Tale of Two Blisters

My blisters are back!  I decided to get back on track with my walking now that the three older kids are in Alaska with their grandparents for the summer.  I did 12 miles this week.  My goal was 15.  On Wednesday, I decided to do six miles.  Three miles I did during lunch and the other three I did at Greenlake.  Being the absolutely brillant person that I am, I decided to wear ankles socks.  Hey, my Reetones are paded.  I didn't even think about the affect the ankle socks would have on my heels after walking six miles.  I ended up with two big blisters on my heels.  After I put the babies down for the night, I decided to take a nice hot bath.  Surveying the damage done to my precious heels, I decide to make an epic, yet disastrous, decision.  I popped the blisters......YEA!!  BRILLANT, HUH???!!!  As you can tell, this story has not ended well.  I have been walking around like I have a stick up my ass because my heels are KILLING me!  I managed to walk three miles yesterday.  But I did not make the planned trip for the other three miles at Greenlake.  And I will be passing on my minimium three miles today.  I will be giving my poor heels a break this weekend.  Hopefully my heels and I will be recovered enough to start walking again on Monday.  But I have learned two BIG BIG lessons from this:

•  NO ANKLE SOCKS
•  DO NOT POP BLISTERS UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES FOR ANY REASON

Favorite Line from Madea's Big Happy Family

These stretch marks is a road map to heaven, hell if you follow this GPS it's gonna take you some where you ain't never been before!

Why Daddy Should Not Cut Hair

My poor little man!!!

It's Official....I have the plane tickets in my hand!!!

My three oldest babies will be heading to their Grandparents the day after school gets out.  I'm excited for them to experience their Alaskan Adventure.  I'm so thankful that my parents are able to take them and give them a summer of fun and love.  They would have been so bored this summer with Mom and Dad working all day.  I get to fly up with them and then come back.  I've never been to Alaska.  So now I will be able to say I have.  Even if it is only a few hours in Fairbanks.  It will be nice to give my Mom, my Dad, and my baby brother a hug and spend a second with them.  My babies will be so different when they come back.  Kids grow so fast, especially during the summer! 

I miss them already!

My Legs Are Still In Shock & My Kindle Fire

My legs were still in shock yesterday from walking/jogging Greenlake.  I pushed myself through a 2.84 mile walk on lunch yesterday.  I thought that would make my legs feel better.  It did not! :-(  I plan on walking again during lunch today.  My legs are starting to feel normal.  Last night, my new personal trainer (my step daughter AKA Sister) made me a workout plan.  It's pretty intense but I'm pretty sure I can handle it.  I've logged 5.5 miles so far this week.  Hoping to make it to 10 by Sunday.  I think I can do it! 

Today my Kindle Fire arrives.  I'm super excited.  I have been debating on getting one for a while.  I really really wanted an iPad, but I can't really justify the money right now.  I'm looking forward to reading again.  I haven't actually finished a book in a really really long time.  I'm hoping it will encourage me to read more.  Especially since all of my favorite TV shows had season finales this week.  I'm thinking during the nice summer evening I can take the kids to the park and ready while they play.

My Step Daughter Kicked My @$$ at Greenlake

Yesterday morning, I decided that I needed to go to Greenlake.  I told Angelina and Isaiah when I dropped them off in the morning that we would go see the lake after work.  I picked them up ready to go to the lake.  But first we had to swing by the house and pick up Sister.  Angelina had a fit thinking we were going home instead of going to the lake.  She loves walking around Greenlake with me.  Isaiah is okay with it for about 30 minutes than he is done.  We got to the lake and Sister recommended we alternate walking and jogging.  First I hesitated because I had the stroller.  Then Sister said she would push the stroller and I was like no.  I mean you burn more calories jogging and pushing a stroller, right?  Then I was all for it.  BUT....my body was not.  We ended up doing it and I jogged for only a total of 5 minutes during a 45 minute walk.  I was dying after each jogging session.  But at least I tried it.  And even though 5 minutes isn't that long, I have to start somewhere.  Between Sister acting like a ninja every time a fly flew in her face and the earthquake from my butt jiggling, it was an amazing workout.  Today my legs (knees, thighs) and hips are killing me.  So I'm going to take a little walk during lunch.  But I will be getting my @$$ kicked again on Friday.  I'm sure Saturday will be the day from hell!!!  She's a pretty good personal trainer. LOL!!!

This baby weight must disappear....NOW!!!

So I think I'm off to a good start.  It is definitely not helping that I have a Keurig machine and endless Otis Spunkmeyer cookies at work everyday.  Plus I spend about 75% of my day on my butt!!!  This is not a good combo. 

I started walking for 45mins on my lunch everyday (almost 3 miles....yea me) during spring break.  But with the kids back in school, I use my lunch to pick them up from school and get them settle at home.  They have been awesome.  They have been doing their chores and homework before I get home from work.  It's so nice to come home to a clean house and no yelling over homework.  However, it has put a huge crunch in my new found workout routine.  Luckily school gets out in about a month, so I can pick it back up then.  Until them I'm stealing moments to get to Greenlake every chance I can get.  I have a gym membership to LA Fitness.  But it seems cruel to pick up the youngest two from daycare and put them back into daycare for an hour while I workout.  So they are accompanying me on my walks.  Which is great, because I'm sure it's a better workout pushing two toddlers in a stroller and walking.....right???

My big issue is eating at night.  I get so busy during the day that I forget or don't have time to eat.  But when I get home and the babies go to bed, I'm eating anything I can find.  So I'm dedicated to no eating after 7pm.  Which is going to be really hard considering that I don't get dinner done until about that time.  So maybe I'll just make a nothing but salads after 7pm rule.

Music ~ Naughty Naughty

♥ this song!!!!

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Nails

I went to get my nails done last night. I love my pink tips but I don't think I'll be going there again. Anyone know a good place in Seattle???

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And Things Keep Getting Better

I said 2010 was THE year.

I said it again in 2011.

I said it again in January.

I'm pretty sure this is going to be one of the BEST years. I have already had so many blessings this year.

The first blessing was a great job opportunity. My new job is closer to home and so much more money. The biggest plus is that I have more time with my babies, no more 1 hour commutes each way. THANK GOD!!!!

The second blessing is an opportunity to purchase a house. We need the space. With 5 kids (ranging from 11 to 1), space is tight.

The third and probably biggest blessing so far didn't happen this year, but it continues to grow. I feel so blessed because I have an amazing, supportive partner. We fight, don’t see eye to eye, and I pout A LOT. But at the end of every day, I get to cuddle up next to someone I genuinely love and I know he loves me.

So needless to say, I’m look forward to the blessings this year holds more than EVER!!!! And if these are all the blessing we have. I’m completely content with them!

♥ this song!!!!

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Location:N 130th St,Seattle,United States

New Fav App: Soundtracking

Soundtracking is a cool app available to iPhones and Androids. This app is the Instagram of music. Take a look and you will be addicted!!! Then follow me and I'll follow back :jenavive!

Compliments to Chef Iz

Quietest dinner in a long time. They really liked the food.

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TV Date Nite

Tonight is one of our TV Date Nites. I'm super excited. Goals when I get home: serve dinner (will be ready as soon as I get home cause I have an amazing Man), dishes, throw in a load of laundry, and get the kids ready for bed. I'll have about two and a half hours to do this. Pretty sure I can get it done. ;-)

Bye Bye Tumblr

I tried to get into Tumblr.....but it's geared more towards my 11 year old than me.

Oh well!!!!

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Sub Focus Out of the Blue featuring Alice Gold

♥ it